So for the next 30 days I have to take more pills. These are to help rebuild the enzymes in the pancreas. If I get better, then we know what the issues is, but if there is no change, then its back to see him and schedule a colonoscopy.

This has really been hard on our sex life. I get better for a week and then I’m back to being in pain the next week. It makes it hard to be sub. Hopefully, in a few days I’ll be feeling better and able to please Sir again.

On a happier note… New toys arrived! I want to play with them right now! lol But the one toy I need “help” from Sir to use it…hehehe. The other one is so awesome! Just wait! Also going to be doing a contest very soon.

So, here we are. A new week. What should I do this week? Hmm… Now that I am feeling so much better, I really want to get back to doing everything I was doing 6 months ago. Can I just say that it’s not that easy to do. I have to start slow. Walking is the first step to getting in shape. Yoga is also something I am doing again. I do want to get back to doing zumba, but my body is too weak for that right now.

Sex. Sex is a good exercise. Hehe… Lots and lots of sex!

Back to sub mode again. Hopefully I can get there in the next few days. So hard to do when the mind is else where. I am trying to build a routine to help me submit. I’m back to writing in my journal every day. Any house work I do, gets done before noon. That way I have the afternoon to get my mind to where it needs to be when Sir gets home. I do my yoga while I watch Days of our Lives. Yes, it’s the only soapy I watch. I make sure to chat with friends that understand me and my live style. This is a very big part of keeping me submissive. I find that when I chat with vanilla friends, I loose my submissive side. I also surf porn and play with my toys.

So, better get to my routine. Sir gets home at 4:30pm I need to be wet and ready for him.

Love the colors. Love the bumps. Love the curve. Love to play with it. This is a fantastic glass dildo. The curve is great for hitting the g-spot. The bumps feel great when using it during anal play.I really noticed them compared to some of my other bumpy glass sex toys.
It’s about 7 inches long and 4 inches around. I do like bigger toys, but this is a good size for anal play. What else can I tell you? It’s pretty. It comes with a velvet pouch that isn’t padded. It’s a good price for a glass toy. So easy to use and quick clean up with soap and water or into the dishwasher they go. Plus you can use any type of lube with glass.
5 out of 5 hearts. No complaints from me!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Sir and I have talked about it and we are thinking of starting our own tradition. Question is, what? Most Christmas Eve’s we have stayed home and watched TV. So, we are thinking that maybe we will go out for dinner and a Movie. The movie would have to be something “heart warming” NOT horror or a thriller. It needs to be in the “spirit” of the holidays. A “feel good” movie.
Maybe Sir will want to start a tradition of a Christmas eve spanking?! LOL
Whatever we decide to do, I’m happy that I get to be with Sir. That’s what matters the most.

I stuck it to the shower wall and backed up on it and that was a mistake! Oops! It doesn’t stay in the cup. The cup suctions well, it just doesn’t hold the toy. It has 3 vib settings. It’s powerful enough to get the job done. You can change the settings when its in the cup. There is a small button cover to push and change the settings. As the picture shows.

The only problem with the design is that when its in the cup, you can’t change the vib settings when its suctioned on to the wall. So its pick the setting and enjoy it.
I like that this toy has the bumps and curves and its flexible. It does have a seam that did make it a bit uncomfortable, I just put a condom on it and it wasn’t as noticeable.I also like it for pussy play. It’s great on the clit.What else can I tell you? OH! It’s purple!

3 out of 5 hearts- the seam and the cup.

Anyways, I am back to writing in my journal daily again. Which is helping me get back to being sub. Even tho, the D/d is good, I really do miss being full time sub for Sir. So many things have changed lately, I’m not sure how to get back to where we were. Honestly, I don’t think we can go back. That’s why we have been talking about starting over, from the beginning. Completely retrain me. We’ll see, for now I am sub, but it’s not enforced during the holidays.
Retraining would begin in the new year.

Also, my sex drive is coming back. yippee! It’s about fucking time! LOL There is nothing worse than no sex drive for me. I feel so useless when I can’t give Sir sex. The past 2 months have been slow. But I think we are on our way back! So, that means there will be better blog posting in the future.
Plus, I have been collarless this entire time. My collar was removed during my sick time. We have been mostly vanilla (D/d). Sir and I have talked a bit about how to start up the D/s again. I think we are going to start over. Retraining on everything. I have to earn my collar back, possibly. Not completely sure what we will do, yet.
You will all be the first to know!

Anyways, if you are having some “Christmas cheer” be careful driving. Actually, better if you don’t drive. We are driving but Sir is not drinking. It’s just too risky and so not worth it. Enjoy your weekend!

This dildo has some nice bumps and curves. It’s great for anal play. (I’m sure some of you men might like this one too.) Some of you ladies out there might enjoy it for pussy play, but it didn’t do much in that area for me. It is made of TPR so you can not boil this one. Only soap and water or toy cleaner. You can use any type of lube on it.
If it’s not the one you want there are plenty of other double ended dildos to choose from on the website.

3 out of 5 It’s a dildo. A bumpy dildo…hehehe.