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The time has come..

I will be spending the next little while at the hospital every day. Soon I will be saying good-bye to my dear friend.

I am at a crossroads. Not sure which way to travel. So many questions and no answers.

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Well the car hunt is over! Woooohooo! We found me a car. So happy, I love it. That is one stress gone.

Dad has been moved to a care home. Where he will have 24 hour care. We dont have to worry so much anymore. I think he will do fine there. My cousin has gotten worse. Looks like he has about 3-4 weeks. He went down hill so fast the last 2 weeks. I’m trying to see him as much as I can. It’s hard to see him like this. Hunched over, not able to hold up the weight of his head. Nodding off every few minutes cause he is so heavily medicated. He is confused and restless. I dont think  he is ready to go just yet. Hell, I’m not ready for him to go. I cant imagine my world without him. I am trying but we are so close its hard to say goodbye to someone you have known all your life.

ok, what else? Weather has been great. warm and sunny. LOL, talking weather to change the subject. Yeah it’s not working.


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Happy Heart Day

I hope everyone had a nice Valentine’s Day. Sir got me a box of yummy Belgian Chocolates and a beautiful purple orchid. We had a nice day together. Today it’s a lazy Sunday. Back to the routine on Monday. Hope this week will be a better one and I can finally find a car.



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Car hunting! What a job. So many cars out there to look at and to try to pick a good one is not easy. Try to find a car that has low mileage and not too old but under 5000.00 Lots of junk out there and lots of scammers. Hopefully we will find a good car soon.

Anyways, what else is going on…hmmm… not much. Things with family are still the same. Sir is still juggling work, school and hospital visits. I’m doing my wifey duties and trying to be sub. Been looking for new crafting projects to keep me busy. Maybe start sewing again. Will see what I find to do.

So that’s it. My boring life at the moment. LOL

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Sunny Monday

It’s sunny today. Which always makes the day better. We had a pretty good weekend. Took Dad out for a few hours. He was happy to get out of the hospital. Went out for a few drinks on friday. Was nice to get out and relax. We don’t do much of that these days. Always on the go, busy busy busy.

I’m hoping that this week Sir and I can try to work in a bit of D/s. It’s hard to get back into it after being away from it for so long. Will see how it goes this evening.

What else is going on? Hmmm, not much. We are car shopping. I need a car. Hard to decide what to buy. Everyone ha an opinion about what the best car is. LOL no worries, we will figure it out.

Well, off to do my workout than to start with the Monday chores.

Have a great day!

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While I Wait.

Since Sir and I have been dealing with sick family members our D/s has been put to the side. So, I have taken up yoga again and trying to get some kind of workout in every day. I have energy that needs to be burned off. Been at it for the last 2 weeks and feeling a lot better. I forgot how good it feels to do yoga daily. Maybe, if I am feeling confident enough, I will join a gym this year. I am just so insecure about people looking at me. I don’t know why. I used to enjoy having people notice me. But now that I am getting older, not so much. I don’t think I am ugly. I’m not over weight or under weight. I know people stare at me when my tattoos show but that I am use to. And since I had the breast reduction, I really noticed that people don’t stare half as much as they use to. ( I had huge tits!) But I think its different in a gym. Or is that just me? Whatever, who cares! I need to get over my insecurities. LOL Moving on!



Not Sure…

Since I don’t have the time to blog, wait, I do have the time, I just don’t want to blog about the sad shit going on right now. So I am wondering, do I keep my blog? or just give up on it? I mean, my D/s life has changed, drastically. I guess its vanilla now. *big sigh*

I don’t see things changing any time soon. I wish they would but ….

I guess I’ll just wait and see how things go.



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